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The optimal end-goal would be to reach a state of heart-mind harmony that completely disregards externally established standards, and to the best of one’s ability, without intention to harm another, do, just do, whatever feels best in any given moment.
This is now my summer project. Might as well cross out the season and set it at topmost priority. And quite a project it already reveals itself to be: suddenly see so many inhibitor elements that felt free to establish mental/emotional residence over the decades. Look at, listen to, read, someone else’s art, music, literature, and get that pang that mixes interest with insight that I have nothing near that ‘good’ or if I want to get that ‘good’ I will have to set everything else aside and pour all energies there.
But that creates new stress factors and we can now access info that pretty much establishes the detrimental effects of stress.
Better route seems to be something like: would you/I rather be ‘good’ or to the best of your/my ability, without intention to harm another, enjoy the sheer doing of it (it being whatever is igniting passion/interest at any given moment)?
Hm it seems that after these years of starting and abandoning blogs, a real purpose is risen.
It isn’t that I can’t draw stuff that resembles recognizable things from the so-called reality-world. I’ve managed to draw a few birds, other things; very few other things. If I had someone close at hand giving instructions and suggesting, “no go back and do this and that” I could (and have) eventually come up with a piece of art that resembles recognizable things from the so-called reality-world.
So along come all these free drawing/painting programs (firealpaca, krita…) and I just get absorbed, lost, forgetful of time; scribble here, try to shade an amorphous form there; play with gradients; even then realize I’m barely scratching the surface whether in the program itself or the all the ways to create optical pleasures. Keep saying, “one of these days I will really apply dedicated effort so I can if I wish, make something that resembles recognizable things from the so-called reality-world.”
But then just a few minutes ago, I was hit with what should’ve been obvious but because of conditioning/programming had remained hidden in plain sight: If art must resemble something recognizable from the so-called reality world, then we should have no music. Quite the liberating epiphany. So I’m gonna go back to my digital doodles. Who knows, maybe someday make something that resembles recognizable things from the so-called reality-world. Or maybe not. Or let them be as little surprises along the way.